Something different

What do you do when you feel like the world around you is caving in? When you feel like you are just falling apart and losing control? It sucks to feel lost and alone. It sucks even more when the people that you thought you could count on, let you down, so from then on you just expect the worst of every body. What do you do when you look back at some things you've done and you just don't feel proud of yourself? What do you when you love someone or just like them alot, and they have seen you at the worst moments, and you are pretty sure they now think less of you? How do you change that image they have of you? What do you do when all you wish is to just start over, in a new place, with new people, that know nothing about you, you can be anything you want, a whole different person. Sometimes that is all I wish for, for things to be different.

Someday....

Everyone always says... someday.... in my opinion it is true. Things don't always just come to us right away, its always someday it will come to us.
Some day I'll graduate from college. Someday I'll have my own clothing line. Someday I'll have my clothing store. Someday I'll meet the perfect guy, he may have flaws but he will be perfect for me. Someday I'll get married. Someday I might have kids. Someday I will travel the world. Someday I'll have a puppy of my own. Someday I'll sky dive. Someday I will have it all, it may not be really "everything" but I will be happy with what I got and feel like I have it all. Someday.... can be far in the future, or could be right around the corner. I guess, Someday can be when you make it. Someday,sometimes can't be forced though. Someday can come with out you even knowing it.

Bring It On

2009 was an alright year for me, could have been a little better, but isn't that the way it usually is? A lot of good things did come my way though. I rekindle some friendships, that was great. I am so happy that me and my oldest friend Lindsey are close again, I really missed her. My best friend from high school Krista and I really got our friendship back on track, and I am so grateful for that, I couldn't picture my life with out her. Krista and I actually brought in the new year together, I wished our other best friend Alana could have been with us. In 2009, I made some awesome friends while I was at UofA and at my new school the Art Institute. David, I met him in february, such an awesome guy, it sucks that we hardly get to see each other since he is at UofA, I consider him one of my best friends. Emily and Stephanie, I met them in the 08/09 school year at UofA. Love those girls, we have so many awesome memories and even tho I don't go to UofA anymore, there will be more memories to come. :) Clorae, met her at the Art Institute, she is the best. I couldn't have asked for a better friend to meet at my new school. She is such a sweetheart and amazing friend overall. Rasha, my best friend from fith grade, we didn't talk for years, but once I moved to phoenix, we became best friends again. She is a great friend and i am lucky to have her in my life. I know we will be friends for a long time to come! There are other friends I've met but these are a few that stick out. But all of my friends are pretty damn amazing, and i am lucky to have met all of you!!
In 2009 I really grew up and learned more about myself. I am really happy with where my life is going in 2010. I know a lot of great things will come my way in 2010, I just have a good feeling about it. Bring it on 2010!!!