It Stops Today

It Stops Today

By: Colbie Caillat

No, I don't want to break when I speak
I don't want to shake while I'm standing

I don't want to crawl into another hole

I don't know what I'm hiding for

No, I don't want to fall when I stand

I don't want to have to hold your hand

I just want to be the girl I use to be, when I was me and worry free

I know these burnings on my own

But I can't keep on running

No, I just can't keep on running away from here

I know that the only way to be is to fight my every fear

I'm not going to make it til I turn around and face it alone, I know

I can't just keep running, no i can't keep on running away

So it stops today

So here I am, I'm taking my first step

Thought I was losing balance but I caught myself

I kind of like the challenge, no I don't need help

I'm going to make it past the very start

It's always been my hardest part

But I'm going to stay in control

I must admit this crutch is getting old

I'm going to throw it out of my hand

I'm finally here, I understand

I know I'll get there on my own

So I can't keep on running

No, I just can't keep on running away from here

I know the only way to be is fighting my every fear

I'm not going to make it til I turn around and face it alone, I know

That I can't keep on running, no I just can't keep on running away

So it stops today

You can hide from all the pain

But it will find you anyway

Yes, I know, now I know

So I can't keep on running

No, I just can't keep on running away from here

I know the only way to be is fighting my every fear

I'm not going to make it til I turn around and face it alone, I know
That I can't keep on running, no I just can't keep on running away
So it stops today

This song by Colbie Caillat really inspires me. Lately I have felt like I've been going through a lot but now I am ready to move past it. I have to face my fears. I have to get my act together, espically with starting new classes on Monday. Last quarter I really slacked off, I got 4 B's and 1 C. Which I was not happy about at all, but its my own fault. So next quarter I need focus and not let stupid things get in the way, like drama for example. I need to start figuring out what I want to do after I graduated from college in Spring 2012. It will come quick. I sometimes I feel like I lose my way but I just to keep my head up in those times and know that I am strong and I can get through anything. I have to stop doubting myself, I have to learn to have faith in myself and more faith in others. Today I stop running and face all the challenges life throws my way.