I Choose....

We all choose how to live our lives, and who to live it with. I have my freinds that I love to death, and my family but that is all I have. I have not had a boyfriend since I was a senior in high school, and right now i am in my second year of college. I have had a few chances to have a boyfriend but I tend to just push them away. I do that because I choose to alone. I choose to be alone cause its easier that way. I don't have to be worried about being left alone cause I already am alone. Or sometimes I push guys away cause really I am wating for someone else. In reality I wish I had somebody to call mine. Somebody that wants to stick around even though I try to push him away. Somebody that will listen to me complain. Somebody that understand me and understand when I have an emotional breakdown. Somebody that will coming running when I need him. Somebody to spend the night with me. Somebody that will always be there. Somebody that won't leave me alone. But for now untill somebody wants to take all of that on (which in my opnion is not that much) I choose to be alone.